emo nothingssss

For the past few weeks, life has been crazy..crazy ugly, crazy lonely,
crazy silent,crazy happy, and crazy beautiful. For the past 7 months
since I started to work, my life has changed, and so as the people
around me. Perhaps I've been to preoccupied with the people I used to
be and hang out with. People who understood my hangups and hormonal
imbalances, per se. I am glad to have met those people, but a bit sad
that some of them are not here in the country anymore. They now have
their own simple lives overseas, and I for one, would like to have a
future in abroad too. For now I really want to establish my future,
life, and career overseas. I don't know, it suddenly struck me that I
should not be staying here. I should be out there exploring the world.
Maybe this way, I will learn more about life, especially being
independent, for I believe that one may truly learn how to be one,
only if he experiences it. Because now, I am truly saying that I am
still dependent to my parents, especially to my mom. To the point that
I still depend on her even to the smallest, unrelevant things that I
should only care about and be acountable for. But nonetheless, I am
really striving for the better. Also when it comes to work, it's a
different world out here, different people, different views and
wavelengths. But I'm still not getting the idea of NOT minding someone
else's business. There are a LOT of interesting people here, some I've
build friendship and become acquianted with. But a FEW, only are my
trusted ones. It's so difficult to find genuine ones who accepts you
for who you are. But that's the reality, and I should live up with it.
Adios for now.