25th to 30th of 2010 DECEMBER

Sooooooo..many things happened this past few days..talk about shitness
mixed with happiness..steady but fun, naughty and nice :))) We spent
christmas in Tagaytay with my happy family!!! Started it with a
prayer, played 'pinoy henyo' with matching super duper clues,
exchanged gifts, and never-ending photo ops. I must say this is the
best Christmas yet that I've spent with them :) Simply happy. I've
never thought that we've become too close now, and that I've become so
mature this year. It's also my first time to give gifts to them, as in
all of them. I felt so fulfilled and blessed. Super super super. Then
from 27 to 29, we went to Caliraya for a camp..I must say medyo bitin
siya kasi some of the lessons did'nt really sank into me.. :( All we
did was to pigged out, sleep, and never ending meditation and
prayer :) Consumed to much meat and all that foods that are bawal..tsk
tsk. Learned how to play monopoly, hehehe steady lang. Of course the
most important thing are the lessons I've learned. I am just in awe of
the responsibilities we need to do. Hoping I can fulfill it with
flying colors :)))
Then yesterday, indulged again (and again) into a lunch buffet @ Taal
Vista Hotel in Tagaytay for my grandma's birthday. She seemed quite
surprised, and happy as well, coz we're once again complete. I could
not ask for more when I'm with my family. And theeeeen, here I am now,
feeling like a 50-yr old drunkard..my tummy is soooooo big. Two more
pigging sessions and then that's it. Should minimize it next year. Oh
and btw, I somewhat miss work and my shift mates :) quite excited for
jan 3 somehow :)))
For the effin part, last last night I lost my other phone, it slid outta my
jacket while I was going to my friend's house, and then while we're
eating out, my slippers ripped off, thank God for the ate that she
repaired it. In a McGyver (tama ba spelling?) way. Truly God really
has hidden ways of making things right :)
Anyway, so tired now only had 2 hours of sleep last last night.
Joy joy joooooooooy. Au revoir for now.

real. realize. realizations.

just read a multiply blog of someone..

ay grabe...first time ko maging sneakkkky...i am just in awe of how he writes...so galing..bravo. wow, didn't expect that talaga..haaay.

okay, i just can't get over of how he turns his ideas into believable and interesting words..grabeeeee...i share his sentiments on things, and how the days are treating him..me too, i've realized that life isn't just all about the things you experience everyday..the rants..the things that you think some people may think of you..it's all about being a different person each day (in a good way) and being a better individual..which unfortunately, i am failing to be now..sad but soo effin true :(

for the past few months, i am constantly changing for the worst..people around me surely notices it especially my friends.."kung alam niyo lang"..is all i can think of everytime i talk to people and i say to them that i am just okay..it may seem that i am being too emotional again but i guess that's how i treat my life now..all is just plain simple and miserable..that's how i make it, and here i am regretting it..

one thing that's really bugging me is my job..yes, first few months is quite good..still adjusting and all..but then just last month, i've realized...grabe, hindi ko yata gusto ito, i have to prove something..sayang ang lahat ng effort to come out from a good university, and i will just end up like this..i guess this is one consequence when you really don't know what you want to do in life..no directions and all, just going with the flow..maybe because i'm still young to value my priorities..but it's never too late..i still have so many years, and i promise i don't wanna waste it anymore..i feel like everytime i walk into the halls of our office, i seem to ask myself "ano bang value ko dito?".."kailangan ko ba talaga gawin ito"?..super baba ng tingin ko sa sarili ko...ughhhh...sucks so bad but i have to bear with it at the moment...my plan next year is to really double my effort to find a new job, though i have started already, just keeping my options still open...to leave or to stay, because one thing's for sure, there will be something that's waiting for me...i don't know when or where or who (?)..but there is..i can feel it...i will have to patiently and cautiously wait for it.

Just a piece of thought: Patience is not only about waiting, it's putting into action something that you'll have to wait.

PATIENCE TRULY IS A VIRTUE. KUNG MAY PATIENCE NA SANTO I WILL BE A DEVOTEE. HEHEHE.

paskowww

it's the time of the year once again..well, had a dinner with family...the best buffalo wings and super cheesy bigat pizaaaaa...nevertheless, what's important is we're complete this christmas..kasi two consecutive years wala ang tatay ko for christmas..simply happpppyyyy..

will go to tagaytay tamorow to spend it with my mom's clan =) excited kasi first time ko magbibigay ng gifts sa lahat =) and the best part ay we're all together again...eatnumannnn naaaa :)

i just wish na bumagal ang oras mula december 25 to january 2..please lang. :p

FELIZ NAVIDAD! CHEERS!

it was the day before christmas

last christmas i gave you my heart, and the very next day you gave it away...

one of my fave christmas songs..

waaaa...i can't believe supah bilis ng araw..it's december 25 once again..time to see loved ones agains...

btw..so many things occurred...cheers to that...wehehehehe...

and finally, i am done with the effin christmas shoppeeenngggg..all set for the next days:))) eat, pig, bum mode for almost a week..forget all the problems, chill, relax breathe :))

WOOOOOTTTTT!!!!! :)

jolly jolly woop jolly woop

basically ito ang mga nangyari yesterday @ the office...

-team lunch out sa hap chan...okay naman food except for the efffin rebosado na puro harinaa...ughhh

-exchange gift na agawan..wth, kahiya yung gift ko...i got a towel...bigayan ng gifts to each other, and as usual, wala pa ko gift sa kanila...will give it next year since last day ko na sa later for this year, i received chocolates, pastries, and a rosary...heckkkk...natawa ako bigla hahahahha...ano yun isasabit ko parang necklace???hahahahha...pero syempre very much appreciated naman =)

-breaaaakkkk breaaaakkkk brreaakkk

-training na naudlot...kagulo sa booking room...should'nt be so big of a dealll...grrr

-breaaakkkk breaaaakkk breaaakkkk and more chika....

-testing konti and then breakkkk

-uwee

super interesting talaga grabe...lol...not...ang dami ng mangyayari next year for sureeeee....grabe...did'nt expect that our team will be like this...haaaaayyyy...sana may isang savior na magredeem sa amin...loljk...daming revelations na hindi ko inexpect...

never imagined na magiging ganito yung work, procrastination and bahala na system...hayyyyy..dammit...so funny na one monent you're gaining momentum sa work, and then the next, may bagong work, so ignore what you're doing...and then may bago nanaman...ang daming priorities..every hour magbabago...wth, labo chong, parang naglalaro lang, nagsasayang ng kuryente...i pity our company for wasting their resources in us...kidding...basta just hoping and praying na maging okay..esp the higher management...

what else, i saw mayonnaise sa piazza....waaaahhhh...i want to meet poch villalon.... =)

jolly jolly woooopp..will sleep now...=)

zzzzZzzzzzZzzzzz....

sooooo...natapos na ang training...and i must say, it's quite interesting....yeahhhhh...i was able to understand the application much better..weeeeee...okay siya in all fairness...pero medyo nakakaantok..medyo naghintay lang kami ng mga 30 minutes..misunderstanding konti sa room...wth...hirap kasi kapag hindi mo kaharap yung kausap...ibang nationality pa...dayuummmm....

anyway, just had dinner..burger and fries only...napaka-healthy...supah...grabecious...wahahahhaha...tamang tama...okay, pagbigyan..christmas naman...wants over needs muna...once a year lang...hehehehehe....

i am so mother effin bored...walang issues..walang testings....zeroooo...none....waley...nothing...nonsense...wth i want a break...i wanna walk...i wanna have coffee and donuts...i wanna swim...in a pool...waaahhhhh..demanding muchhhh....

maya ulet...

just another manic moooooondaaaaaaayyyyyyy

wth...worrrrkkkk again.....what to do what to do....well, meron kaming training later, 4 hours yata??? shyeetttt...antok mode nanaman...haayayaaay...btw, ang dami ng nagreresign sa team namin..ang daming lumilipat and all...who's next????? sana ako...hopefully...ewan...

everybody here is changing shiftssss...inggit ako...kelan ko kaya maeexperience yung normal shift ulit????asa boi...unless lumipat na talaga ng work..ay ewannnn...just hoping and praying that it will be sooner...

tug pak tug tug pak

still craving for Mcdo!!!! i wanna order now!!! pero huwag na lang...nyeta, can't sleep again...my body is so kawawa na! i miss the normal life...the 8 to 5 life....gimik after....waaaaa....when can i get back to that kind of life?? maybe matagal pa...unless kareerin ko ang pagapply...ohwell, that's life...life is taft...i miss taft...i miss college...NOT. hahahahha...sabawnesss....

btw, just watching videos on youtube, kung ano ano..beatbox vids, saywuht vids....trailers...but i'm not even sleepyyy....heckkkk....heecccckkkkk....heck. work again, iniisip ko pa lang, ayaw ko na, gusto ko na maging tambay ulit...kahit one month lang!!!! ooppsss, be careful what to wish for...baka magkatotoo...pero this past 4 months...umuuwi ako ng bahay na sarado na mga malls, the feeling na you want to go out or eat outside pero closed na lahat...grrrr...effeerrr life it is...my shift sucks...i have no life...buti na lang i get to go out once in awhile....enjoy w/boys and girls...but it's a different world out there...just hafta accept ittttt... :)

so near yet i don't feel it

6 days before christmas..and i honestly don't feel it..yet i am excited for it :)

bakit kaya? maybe because christmas truly is for kids only..sadly, i'm not a kid anymore..child-like lang siguro..sometimes...hihihihi...anyways, just want to reminisce my childhood memories during the christmas season, well, we always celebrate the 24th to 25th in my lola's house in tagaytay..i remember me and my younger cousins used to hang socks outside the door..and when we wake up the next day, it'll be full of sweets and some other things na...we really believed in santa that time, until i was like 8 years old...the memories...even though i'm the only girl pa then, and wala akong ka-age sa mga lalaki kong cousins...we took a bath together (hihi), played sa 'farm' nila lola, gumulong sa kape na bagong harvest, scare each other, haaaayy nakakamiss maging bata...but then what's happening to me now is also exciting and challenging at the same time..i get to meet different kinds of people, decide on my own at times, and experience stuff w/o parental consent..i don't wanna delve into details, but as my best friend would always say 'it's part of growing up'..hahahahha..

iba pa rin na you can experience things that you never thought you can experience..hehehe...this is the part of my life na i am looking forward to many things..and hopefully it'll be sooner than i expected..

anyway, back to christmas now, wala pa rin pala akong gifts na nabili!!!! waaaa, should get my GC na tomorrow and shop shop shop since my last day in the office for this year is in the 22nd...so meaning..i'll be joining the christmas rush!!!! shyeeeetttttt!!!! i can do this!!!!!! i am so fickle-minded pa naman when it comes to gifts...super impulsive pa ako sometimes....ayyy bahala na...whatever's good, imma grab it...syempre w/in the budget dapat....since this is my first christmas that i'll be giving something for my fam and relatives...i'll make it kinda bonggaaaa...kabogggg....echos!!!

btw, it's monday again....waaahhh what to expect???uhm, nothing??!!! yey...that's one thing na siguro na okay sa job ko, nothing to expect, no worries, no stress...no work???!!! effff...basta ba i'm earning that's okay naa...kesa maging tambay at maging jejemon....at least i'm considered as an employee...or yuppie...whatever it is...

so there, medyo nagulat lang ako pumasok si papa sa room...waaah creeepyy mehn...i'm zoooo scurreddd...kala ko kung sino....anyway, imma sleep now...and my neck's kinda hurting kasi medyo weird ang pose ko....wahahhahahaha...

ADIOS....

indescribable feeling

efff! what's this feeling a lil below my chest and slightly above my stomach! i can't explain..hindi naman ako nananumber 2..grrrrr, oh well, just woke up around 1:30 pm..i missed a christmas parteeeyy...also i missed giving to three of my inaanaks, that's good right???hahahaha bawi na lang next week? or year? hihihihi...

another lazy sunday afternoon, here @ my bed, waiting for sunday showbiz news, hehehe..can i say that i'm so lazy!!!??? missin' the bum life, wherein i only do 2 things, sleep and eat...among others...

oh well, i wanna workout but i am too lazy, even to take a bath..wahahahaha..i need to change, i have to..but i'm not making any new year's resolution..becauseeee....wala lang...walang mangyayari..i for one believe that a person should not wait for a certain day or month or year to change or to do something that they think will make them be a better person...ano daw?? well anyway, basta, one of these days, i should change..i MUST change....

another thing, i love our new TV, you can connect to the net, and do everything with it, but I'm too lazy pa to kalikot the thing...wahahahahhaha artiiiii...

lastly, it's monday tamooorooooww!!! work again...but the best thing is that i only have till the 22nd, and i am free for the rest of the year...wooooottttt!!!!! sana i will be happy this week...kasi lately i'm not really doing fine when it comes to work, not sure if it's because malapit na ang holidays, or talagang wala na akong masyadong gana mag-work!!!!! waaaahhhhh! i am too excited!!!! i dunno why....

basta, all i want is changes next year, oooopssss, or should i start it now???!! nahhhh...basta, ewan..

emo nothingssss

For the past few weeks, life has been crazy..crazy ugly, crazy lonely,
crazy silent,crazy happy, and crazy beautiful. For the past 7 months
since I started to work, my life has changed, and so as the people
around me. Perhaps I've been to preoccupied with the people I used to
be and hang out with. People who understood my hangups and hormonal
imbalances, per se. I am glad to have met those people, but a bit sad
that some of them are not here in the country anymore. They now have
their own simple lives overseas, and I for one, would like to have a
future in abroad too. For now I really want to establish my future,
life, and career overseas. I don't know, it suddenly struck me that I
should not be staying here. I should be out there exploring the world.
Maybe this way, I will learn more about life, especially being
independent, for I believe that one may truly learn how to be one,
only if he experiences it. Because now, I am truly saying that I am
still dependent to my parents, especially to my mom. To the point that
I still depend on her even to the smallest, unrelevant things that I
should only care about and be acountable for. But nonetheless, I am
really striving for the better. Also when it comes to work, it's a
different world out here, different people, different views and
wavelengths. But I'm still not getting the idea of NOT minding someone
else's business. There are a LOT of interesting people here, some I've
build friendship and become acquianted with. But a FEW, only are my
trusted ones. It's so difficult to find genuine ones who accepts you
for who you are. But that's the reality, and I should live up with it.
Adios for now.

insomniac

I can't shleeeeep! I want to but I can't..I won't, I ain't..F!!!!!

I am soo hungry right now!!!! Only ate one meal for the day..It's yesterday pa @ Circles.

Brekky buffet was ze boomb!!!!! Wanna go back there!!!!!! They have kwek kwek imagine...a 5-star hotel with street food..amahhhzzzingggg....then last Friday, tried Yakimix...wth, if you don't wanna wait for 2 hours, just please make reservations first. The heck, but super worth the wait..it's a fuzion of Korean, Japanese, and Chinese, cuisine, syempre with a Filipino twist na din! The best! Super fully-loaded buffet ang weekend ko! So christmas-sy feeling na talaga! I'll be a pig again! I am so tamad pa naman to exercise and stuff, and most especially mag capital D, as in diet!!!!

But how could I resist not eating this season??!!!! So many gatherings!!!!! Shyeeeetheadd.

Okay, feeling a little bit sluggish nowwww..ZzZzZzZZzZ..

Can I just say that I'm really craving for McNuggets and Spag?! When can I satisfy it kaya????

Hmmmmm..BUHBYE FOR NOW. FREALZ. :)

*This Mayonnaise song keeps playing in my head*

Heyaaaaa! ;)

Shocks! It's been awhile since I last wrote here. Well, what happened to me na ba for the past months?..

First off, I've got a job..my first ever frealz job..here in a company that sounds like a curse..as in the F word! Effff! Pero I don't see it as a job kasi most of the time idle kami as in define facebook, chat, go out, break, etc for almost 80% of the time. Heckkkkk, I really don't see any worth in it. But hey, super kaduper okay ang perks ng company as in hindi mo siya mahahanap sa iba kaagad. Say wuuuuhttttt...as in rest assured you'll feel you're being taken cared of as an employee. The shuttle, unli drinks, leaves, etc...Ze best! But I hope mas okay pa din yung work. Oh well, pagbigyan since we're still being established as a team, but F, it's been almost 6 months and parang walang improvement! But yeah, GOD will make a way to push through with whatever plans He'll have for me.

Syempre, I've met new peeps in the office na din..Syempre ibang environment, ibang ugali, you just have to relate and adjust for them at times..Kinda tough but taking it as a challenge. Not really the type to be feeling close to a person, just want to know them first before feeling that you're close to them even if they don't feel like it..does that make sense??? Oh weellll, basta, one step at a time, and violaaaa! Let's see what'll happen! Syempre hindi naman mawawala ang mga crushes and stuff, for inspiration!!!!! But lately I find this really cute guy from the engineering team! He talked to me in our Christmas parteeey...kahit may amats na siya nun..and he performed!!! Yes!!! Sana I can watch him again..and I wanna see him again sa office naman..coz I rarely see him as in rare!!! Anyway, enough about that...

Can I just say that my shift is the EFFFF???? Okay siya sa start, mga first 3 months, but hell, starting last month I've realized how hard it is! My body clock is oh soooo ruined....like now I should be sleeping but I'm writing..Have to wake up pa tomorrow early..And yes, like in college, I'm not used to waking up early anymore, I usually wake up now 12nn...soo ineeet mehn, as in buti na lang medyo nag dry na ang skin ko, kaya wala na masyadong oiliness, and fattyy feeling...wahahahhaha the efffff....

Before i I hit the sack, can I just say I'm excited for the holidayssssssssssss!!! So many things to do, attend, wooohhoooo! syempre christmas with the fam, and then a 3-day camp, and then my grandma's birthday, and then new year's...and then new yearrrrrrr (hopefully new job)! :)

Basta I'll try to post regularly here just to vent my feelings towards anything and everything under the roof.

Pero one last thing, I really wanna see this guy, and maybe talk to him. Let's see on Monday...spell ASA!

ADIOS =)

My struggle. My LORD.

I am in a new journey in my life. I am now facing a life full of challenges, excitement, sadness, tension, and then some. Truly it is hard to face the "real world" unlike the ideal, light, and immature university life wherein we have limitations and we were confined under the egos of our classmates, friends, and most especially our professors. Although I miss that kind of life, it's still is different when you go out there on your own, stand on your own, and face all the people as if everything's alright, and just by living with the status quo. But deep down inside, I am longing for something. I often think what will I became in the next two weeks or so. Will I be working in a bank? Corporate office? Field office? Broadcasting corporation? Call center? Will I work near or far from our home? Will I get a high or just enough pay? So many things are running on my mind. Really can't translate what I'm feeling. All I know is I am ready, eager, enthusiastic, and joyfully prepared to work and be financially stable. I can say that I am ready and willing to take all the challenges the real world has to offer. I am definitely missing the feeling of being stressed and working under pressure. I would say that I enjoy continuous work, and maybe a little bit of play. But what I'm just pointing out is that I need to get going! To contribute my skills and all other things that I may be able to offer. I'm really up to it.

But despite all these craziness and worldliness. Nothing still compares

in walking into a life of faith and not by what I see. Living a life with my Savior, Provider, Bestfriend, Mentor, Guardian, my Loving Father, the Lord Jesus Christ. Nothing is impossible to Him. All the uneasiness, tension, struggles, and problems are totally gone if we only submit to Him. And I am a living testimony to that because despite of my condition, I am still gripping tightly onto Him. I know that He will give the desires of my heart if only I continue to have faith, pray, worship, believe, and love Him. And I know that in this time of difficulties, I have Him by my side. I will truly submit all my worries and anxieties up to Him, and truly the rest will follow. That I will have the job that He has planned for me.
I am looking forward to that.