faith&belief

for the past days, life has been sad and happy..sad because we're only 5 in the team now, and last week, we're only 2 girls in my shift..buti na lang same interests naman kami ng kasama ko..same plans and agendas when it comes to the future and sa work :DDDD

it's been sad also kasi there were a couple of problems sa team, especially sa boss, the burden he's carrying is so much hard, his sister passed away which really affected his performance, i am just hoping and praying that when he comes back, all will go back to normal and for him to not become distracted anymore...after reading his email to us asking for a bereavement leave, i felt more compassionate than ever, coz i used to be really apathetic especially nung college, to the point that i don't even participate in the activities our school called us for..so now, i am somewhat regretting that i am still not active when it comes to those kinds of activities...and i blame myself for that...

awhile ago sa church, someone shared the difference between having faith and believing..and this is what i understood..

FAITH - something you have
BELIEF - something you do

sounds confusing at first but then after further elaboration, faith is something innate in us, part of our nature..and belief is an action that may or may not stem from faith..if for example you ask permission from your parents to go somewhere, if they only say 'i believe in you', you should doubt a little, because they may or may not trust you that you'll not do anything that is not pleasing..but when they say 'i have faith in you', that's an ultimate response that they have trust in you..same as with your friends and loved ones..isn't it much better that they have faith in you rather than just believing you...i may sound too religious but that's one thing i realized today..i may not be an epitome of holiness to others especially to my friends, who really knows me, but i want people to lay a faith in me, even to the smallest things i seem not to excel at..

hehehehe..much of the drama and goody stuff..but it's been a tough week last week especially when i received a bad news about something i'm really eager to enter into..i always see myself unfortunate when it comes to situations like that, it's been like the third time that something like that happened..maybe next time i should not be too hopeful and confident..maybe i should not expect anything..because people can really be deceiving especially when you first met them..ughhhh...really disappointing but i'm still looking into the brighter picture :D

and once again...new week ahead...and i have a small agenda tomorrow, and i hope that i'd pass through it steadily..though i'm quite scared coz i think i need to do some explanation...tssskk..please just give me some favor, Lord :p